Cramping today :(

I'm feeling quite a bit of cramping so far this morning!! I'm sure it's just normal but for me...it's a scary thing!! Everything came together so perfectly...if everything goes right Jeremy will have his October baby!! So just like with Ayden...I will worry about this baby from now till...well...do we ever stop worrying? Every cramp or pain will scare me till we have the baby!! This will be our last baby so I want everything to go very smoothly!! I wish that I could shout this from the highest mountain tops but past experiences have made this rough for not only me but Jeremy too!! He doesn't communicate these fears with me but I'm sure he's worried too!! One miscarrage & what happened with Caitlynn will do that to ya though!!
Well that's just my rant for today!! Thanks for reading!!

We're pregnant!!!

Well if you're reading this, it's because we've told you about the pregnancy!! Unfortunately (for you) we're following the same rules as last time as to not jinks anything!! As of this post I'm only about 4 weeks so I just found out (Saturday to be exact)!!

Funny story though as to how/why we found out when we did (my cycle wasn't due to start till Monday which is when I normally test)...Jeremy was going to take me out for sushi on Sunday which would have been fine as I normally just get crab because of the happy hour special & occasionally I get a little something raw!! Well this time I was REAAALLLLLY craving a spicy salmon roll (oh how I LOVE this roll)!! Though one thought popped in my head the moment we had the sushi talk...I need to get a pregnancy test to make sure I wasn't pregnant before I eat that!! So we did our grocery shopping for the day & after Ayden was bathed & put to bed I took the test!! I was shocked to see that I was in fact PREGNANT!! WHAT??? Could it really happen that soon?? This was only our 2nd month trying!!??!! Jeremy was on his way to bingo so I took a picture of the positive test (it was a no brainer since it was digital) from my phone & texted it to him!! I guess thinking about it now...maybe I should have waited till he got home so I could see his reaction (the last two times he was at work when I told him)!! Oh well too late now!!

So you're probably wondering why I'm writing this but you haven't seen it until now (probably months from now)?! Well even though we feel to keep this secret from you for now, I want you to know what's been going on this whole time!! That way maybe you won't feel so left out when we do decide to tell you!!

I haven't seen the Dr yet...even if I called they'd probably make me wait like they did last time!! I still have a bill that I need to clear up & just don't have the money at the moment plus...I'm sort of still processing everything!! We haven't even told Taylor yet!! (Oh how I hate all the bad pregnancies that have made me this way!! Always waiting for something bad to happen or the other shoe to drop so to speak!!)

Well that's it...aside from being tired a lot (only during the day), I don't feel much different!! I'm a little bummed that I never lost the weight I wanted to before now (a little late now) :-\ but that's ok...I did ok with my weight gain with Ayden & I plan to watch what I eat even more with this one due to Ayden's blood sugar issue at birth (though I don't know if that had anything to do with it but I'm not taking chances this time)!! I know I'm going to gain what I gain but if I can prevent any unnecessary weight I'm gonna try!!

I will try to keep you as updated as possible!! Though if you don't see anything for a little while...I will DEFINITELY post after my Dr. appt!!

Love,